The Force Within
"O prophet! thou hast ill will to learn this writing. I see thee hate the hand
& the pen; but I am stronger. Because of me in Thee which thou knewest not. for why? Because thou wast the knower, and
me." Liber al vel Legis 2:10-13
This is a message from Hadit, via Aiwass, for Aleister Crowley. It pertained to Crowley's mental
state of mind at the time he was scribbling the words to the Book of the Law in a private room in Cairo, Egypt, in 1904.
The message also has contemporary implications for anyone examining this work. It is a hard message
because it spits in the face of all religious implanted teachings of morality, sin and the wrath of god.
Crowley admits, in his own writings, that he was troubled by the words. "I was at the time of this
revelation, a rationalistic Buddhist, very convinced of the first noble truth: 'Everything is sorrow!'" he wrote.
"It is also explained in that place how I was prepared for this work by that period of dryness.
If I had been in sympathy with it, my personality would have interfered," he said.
The genius behind this work is that nothing is wasted. Every phrase, word and line contains multiple
meanings. All who study them will find personal benefit.
That Hadit should stop in the midst of his message to deal with Crowley's mental state appears at
first to be unfitting. Why should we care how Crowley thought in 1904? That is because we are probably thinking the same thoughts.
We are experiencing the same unwillingness to listen to what the gods are telling us. We find ourselves comfortable in our
angelic induced slavery, our daily dependence upon a grandfather god figure and his armada of angels watching over us. The
concept of free will, of unbiased thinking without an angel planting a false belief system in our heads, is dangerous. It
threatens an extreme alteration in the path we are following. It is like a baby taking his first steps on tottering legs.
Crowley's analysis of his own state of mind when hearing the words gives us an excellent clue as
to what this verse is all about. It is important that we study this work with an open mind, giving each new concept careful
examination.
Hadit said: "I see thee hate the hand & the pen; but I am stronger. Because of me in Thee which
thou knewest not."
Because we are part of Nuit, and because Hadit exists as the energy, the light within us, it is
impossible for us to escape their influence. Not only does Hadit know and understand our thoughts, but He can overpower us.
"I am stronger. Because of me in Thee which thou knewest not." Until that moment,
Crowley did not understand the concept of the energy of the creator within his own body.
But wait, does this mean that the creator controls our actions against our will? Must we submit
to predestine? Absolutely not. Hadit used His power to force the words into the world through Crowley's unwilling hands. But
notice that he reminded Crowley that before this moment, "thou knewest not." The entire message of Thelema smites such a concept.
It is not the intent of the creator to lead us through life by the hand. It is our job to discover our will and then pursue
it.
The message concludes with the strange sentence: "for why? Because thou wast the knower, and me."
It is almost as if Hadit was interrupting Crowley's question in mid-thought . . . the first letter
of "for why?" is not capitalized.
The answer was that Crowley had control of his mind. And Crowley thought he had the answers in Buddhism.
Hadit also was there, knowing what Crowley knew but not interfering until those critical hours in 1904.
The message changed Crowley's life. It will change the life of anyone who takes a serious look at
the words.
Copyright - James Donahue
